Nights Like this I wish…


Ok….so it is 2:26 am. I was sleep but I can’t sleep now. So I’m sitting here typing up this blog on my cell knowing I won’t post it until tomorrow. But if I don’t do it now, it won’t get done cause it’s going to be another one of those days.

I just have a lot on my mind these days and so much to do. If only I could steal a couple of hours each day or stop time long enough to just …breathe… Sometimes it feels like I am running on fumes.

I posted a status on Facebook a few days ago and it just said “…patience…”. Sometimes I have to remind myself that
1) I am not superwoman. I cannot do it all no matter how much I try.
2) I cannot control the actions of others no matter how much I’d like to. And
3) Everything will fall into place within due time.

I guess I was a little disappointed because my band practice was cancelled and I did not have control over the situation. And I thought back at the times I had to push back a project and I got off the schedule I had created… So I will continue to develop my patience and work diligently to do my part.

It is hard when you want something so much that you can taste it. It’s like – right in your grasp yet so far away. ….All a part of being an independent artist. I should be soooo used to this now. But I am not. So please be patient with me as I continue to grow and work on and getting this train rolling. Because once it gets its fuel, its going to be hard to stop. ;). Now you understand why I call this blog “the journey of an indie-soul songstress”? Lol. It is definitely that … A journey. It’s a mixture of fun, passion, sweat, frustration, excitement, fear, courage, joy, highs and lows — but I wouldn’t trade it for anything! :-D. I L-OVE what I do.

Ok. I think that was medicinal because now I am finally feeling like I can fall to sleep.

Sweet dreams….until next time..

  • Naturally Alise

    I am learning myself to not get caught up or fixated on things out of my control. It is a tough journey but I am getting there, it is showing me how strong I never knew I was each time I let adversity just roll off my back… guess I am growing and ish…. lol

    • jai Moi

      It’s funny how we all are so different but yet the same in so many ways. =) It’s always good to know that you aren’t alone in feeling this way. =)